nothing but blue skies.

the heat is killing me! i cannot forthelifeofme think straight.
even more write my thoughts here. here's hoping you are coping with the heat better than i do, lovelies! i still have a lot of backtracking to do. hello, anna! ;()

whatiwore (for work): blazer: thrifted
top: promod
skirt: from SG

WARNING.

MISS EAST, today.

Partly cloudy in the morning then becoming cloudy with occasional rain and a rumble or two of thunder later in the day. possibly a thunderstorm during the evening, then some lingering showers still possible overnight.

lately...

i have been doing a lot of thinking and less gloating.

i am finding it easy to let go of just about anything - a person, a grudge, an obsession...

i'm getting scared of not being able to know how to hold on to what really matters

and even more scared of not being able to know who really matters

i am getting more comfortable in my own skin which is even more scary than not knowing what to do and being tacky and not knowing which fork to use...

i don't even get jealous of happy couples anymore

i find selling over-priced roses on valentines day better than finding a date

i have found myself too many times thinking of trying all the things i didn't even deem worth my time or my presence

i am starting not to care

but i AM also starting to care.

have i turned jaded? have i totally convinced myself i AM really invincible? or am i really getting old?

i went to bed 19 and woke up 35. kafkaish.